What a beautiful, good, bad, painful, miraculous, wonderful, scary, crazy year the one is leaving us! so much to be thankful for, so much to regret....
So much hurt, and pain and loneliness, and so much life, and sweetness, love, friendship and many, many miracles...
I owe this year two births: my beautiful baby Lauren, my personal bitter-sweet huge miracle and little hero that came into my life to rescue me from the burden of nostalgic and painful, even destructive mourning. I had to stand up and fight for my little girl's life, to keep her healthy, to keep her safe...and God knows that those scary moments gave me a miraculous strengh that I have never felt before. The second birth is this absolute overwhelming love for Photography, which keeps me focused and eager to learn, to discover, and to create.
These pictures taken the last day of 2009, processed at the same moment of the begining of 2010, (thanks Taty) want to express the beauty of loneliness and silence, of being alive, in the constant trip to our own self discovery. Even when we feel scared, sad, in pain, or rejected, it is all worth it, every single minute of our lifes, every feeling, every experience, even the painful ones are miracles, every breath we take is one...maybe not a miracle for ourselves (sometimes we are so bussy we can't perceive it), but maybe a miracle for someone else, that is the beauty of love (the biggest miracle of all).
New Year Resolution:
-live
- stop surviving, and just live!
-be more thankful (for the little tiny-everyday-usually-taken-for-granted-kinda-things)
-laugh more
-live....
Gracias Senor por mis brazos buenos, cuando hay tantos mutilados; por mis ojos buenos cuando hay tantos sin luz, por mi voz que canta cuando tantos enmudecen, por mis manos que trabajan, cuando hay tantos que mendigan: por conservarme siempre con salud, por el pan nuestro de cada dia, por guiarme por el buen camino. Es maravilloso Senor, tener un hogar donde volver cuando hay tanta gente que no tiene a donde ir. Es maravilloso amar, sonar, sonreir, cuando hay tanta gente que se revuelca en pesadillas y tantos que mueren antes de nacer. Es maravilloso Senor, sobre todo, tener tan poco que pedirte y tanto que agradecerte.
Ana Maria
(A few days ago I found this prayer in a letter that my mom wrote in 2001...it brought tears to my eyes, a smile in my face, and a deeptly thankful heart!...needed to share this prayer with all of you!)
